生老病死 is something we will experience during the process of our life. Yea. Life is really pretty short. The moment we are born, we have to face so much so much up and downs. We have to go through different phases of situations. Be it happy or sad. We have to face them. Come to think to it, I think i did not achieve anything during this 20 years.Or, i should say 21 years. Did kind of badly for PSLE. Proceed on to my Secondary school. Had a fair share of happy and unhappy memories. Let start from the Unhappy Part. Sec 1 and 2 are the horrible phase for me. Cut off ties with a friend who is supposed to be my best friend. But due to her character, me and ZX decided to just "dont friend her". What a joke. Yea. Let Chris down so many times until i lost count of them. Hate my CCA to the CORE and whenever i can, i just absence myself from band practice. Always come home late and hang around at dont know which shopping centre when im still in Sec 1 and 2. Sounds so DUMB when i think of it now. Happy part is during my secondary 3 and 4 days whereby i get to know my BUTTS, and i did quite ok for my O levels. At least my efforts do pay off. And lill Jo was there for me during this period of time guiding me all the way.

Then after O levels, i proceed on to Poly.. The Course is actually not the one i want to go into. But at that time, i myself dont even know what i want to study at all. In the end, Mum chose for me. The course Seems to have alot of prospects upon looking at my uncle's career now. But that does not applies for me. In fact, i was somehow suffering at that time. i dont dare to go school, i dread going for lectures, i hate tutorials cause i cant even finish them. I was complaining to kelson every morning when i got to school.. I only manage to scrap through all my tests. Chill Buddy drop out in the midst of the course and left me with 3 other girls. And that period of time is simply like HELL! I saw hyprocritism and fake friendship between the 3 of them. I remain neutral. Yea. And now i heard from one of them that they did not contact anymore. So this is called FRIENDSHIP?!

Yea. Manage to get a Diploma with alot of C and D in my transcript. Seems demoralising. But i dont care. i stay on to the course because of mum. She asked me to endure for the 3 years. And thus, i listened to her. When i graduated, i did not even go for the grad night. This shows how heck care i am. Yea. Got my current job once after i graduate. Cant rest for too long as im dont wish to be a bummer. Right from the start, i knew this job wont get me anywhere. Its more for housewives and retirees. The job is rather simple. As long as u know how to speak English, Mandarin, read english, You are IN! Yea. Though the pay is rather LOW, But i stay on. Alot of people were telling me that i should change job since last year. I kept saying: "Ya, i will." But its just a way to shut them up. I was too lazy to look for another job at that time. What job i can look for with this lousy result? Lab Techinican? Chemical Engineers? Analyst? DREAM ON. I think i can only be the cleaner in this industry. So i stay on in the job for 1 year plus. Sometimes, i will tell J i wish to change job but dont know which job to choose. She will ask me to slowly think about it. And Afterwhich, i forgot abt it and i continue my routine job. I just feel very comfortable with the environment there. Its like the people there are like your mothers. And they are people who are easily to get along with. Everyday at work is just so nice and relaxed for me. But i need to move up one more step.

Thus, i decided to go for my Bachelor Degree together with MOO and RIE. Initally, we only want to get a TMIC cert. But after some discussion, we think that its more better to get a Degree better than another DIP cert. Went MDIS and take up International Bachelor(HONS) Degree in Hospitality, Hotel Management and Tourism course. The duration is 2 years and 8mths. Stdying and Schling at the same time is hectic and tiring. You gotta juggle ur time real well. Projects, assignments, essays and presentation. I had a hard time during the 1st 2 mths. Had so much quarrels with my cousins as well as J. Yea. But things are solved afterall. Me and cousins are still cousins. Me and J are still friends. =)

Tender my resignation in the midst of sept. Had a hard time deciding if i should quit But afterall, i decide to move on to another company.
Now, i got a new job working under the HR department. And i will be starting it on next monday. Hopefully everything will goes well and i hope i can achieve smth out of this.
Today is simply a day which is so wrong. Firstly, within 30 mins, there are 3 ppl kena Sacked by my company. HAA! Recession period? How come we need to give one mth notice when we resign and when the boss sacked people, they just need one min?

Secondly,Grandma has been admitted to hospital this afternoon. Just now, Da gu called Rie and said her condition is not very good and still very sick. And there is a infection. If the pain still persist, Grandma have to go for OP. I just feel like crying just now. I feel so helpless. the 3 of us Wanted to go down hospital after school but we decided to go tml instead as its kind of late anyway. tml suppose to be my last day at work. But am nt going anymore. Cherish your family members and loves one before they leave you. Dont only regret only when you lose something. Now, alot of people asked me the same qsn: "felicia, will you regret doing the tattoo?" Sorry but the answer is NO. I thought very carefully of what i want before doing it.

im just so tired now. Bless me with a life span till 60 will do. good nights.

Thanks for reading this long post. =)

i dont see any happiness in me at all.