我会好好过李玖哲

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重
都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收
你都只是风
你来过
却爱上自由
你出走
我不问理由
我会好好过
等你再爱我
总有个角落
会让你想起我
我会好好过
等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
纵使爱太弱
我会好好过
等你回头会
看到的一定是我

This is suppose to be a very nice song.
Today seems so different from other Saturdays. I did not go for my last day of work this morning. I took urgent leave. Initially tonight, we are going to a pub to drink as a celebration for my upcoming new job next monday. We planned everything nicely. We have booked one table beforehand. But we decided to postpone everything. This morning, When we went down hospital, everything seems okie. Its just that grandma's breathing seem heavy. There is a tube connected across her nose and ah ma was on drip. She is sub conscious but she kept on wanting to get up of the bed. She pulled the tubes off and blood was dripping everywhere. At that time, im trying my best to hold back my tears. We called the doctor and nurse immediately and they were trying their best to stop the blood from flowing out. Doctors were saying that it because her Blood Pressure was low and thus, causing her heartbeat to be irregular. And they will be monitoring her closely. And at that time, Grandma was in the high dependency ward and only allows 2 visitors at a time.. The 3 of us went off after 2 hours and thinking of coming back around 6 plus after doing our own personal stuff. But after an hour, we recieved a call and Ah ma was send to ICU. Me and MOO rushed back again from town and Rie cabbed down. This time round, more cousins came and most of them have swollen eyes. We went in to look at Ah ma. I knew she is in a pain. Everyone was trying to talk to her to keep her awake. She was trying her best to reply all of the questions asked But doctor did advise us not to talk to her so much as she has to use her muscles when she speak. We all cried. Doctors and Nurses were working very closely to make the necessary arrangements. Doctors were saying that the imflammation in grandma gets worse and causes the 2 kidneys to fail. There were excess blood in it and they are trying to use the dialysis machine to clear the toxic away. There are infections in the large intestine and stomach too. And they gotta insert the tube in her mouth for her to breathe better. Everything is unstable. Xrays were done together with so much blood tests. I cried so hard and was telling Moo and Rie that i hate all this happening to the ppl around me. And somemore this person fighting for her life is my grandma. The feeling is really killing everyone of us. We cant do anything but to wait outside ICU for the nurses to update us w Grandma's condition.
Rie will be staying over tonight with other cousins. Me and Moo will go down early in the morning tml. I got a very very bad headache now. Everything seems to be so wrong now.

I pray for the best for my grandma. Hugs.