A New Year is starting. 2011. It suppose to be a happy year for me at least. I have been waiting for 11.11.11 to come. I used to tell dad, mom, cousins and friends that I'm gg to have a celebration. A big one. It's once in my life time that such a nice date occur. But dad didn't have the chance to celebrate together w us.
Reading back the post I wrote last yr, same date. I hope for good health for my parents and family. I wish for everyone to be happy. But all this wishes i made turn out to be more like a nightmare. A big cruel joke made on me. Till now, frankly, I still can't get over the loss of dad even though 3 weeks has pass.
I hate 2010, really. But I want to thank 2010 for making me grow up. Grow up in a way that I have to set my priorities right. I hve to shoulder the burden together w mom to this family going. I have also learn to make friends wisely. Yes, in the past, I m judgmental. I judge when people come and tell me something about that particular person. I'm easily affected by others' words. And because of this, I lost friends. Friends that I know for years over friends I know for months. HAA. Sad to say, it's a 人咬人的世界. You don't know who will turn their back and stab you. But at least I'm out of it. Nicknames and bad words are given to me. It really upsets me alot initially. And finally I understand the worst feeling of it when I gave people nicknames.
I'm not going to make any resolutions this yr. I will just live life to the fullest. To do what that is needed to be done.
I want to thank my relatives, friends, colleagues, my 2 best butts and gf for going through the worst and tough time with me. <3
Just hope that 2011 will be a better year for me, for you, for us, for everyone.
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Nonsensical dad. Taken this pic just one week before he pass away.

"learn how to die and you will learn how to live"



"you die every night when you sleep and you are reborn when you wake up"







Tuesday with Morrie is a inspirational book.
Spend a week reading it. (:


nice book.





Its not the same anymore ever since dad pass away.


The house is quiet.


I miss dad very much.
The laughter that we used to have.


The nonsense we used to say.


The naggings dad used to give us.


The goodbyes he bid us before leaving for work.


The calls he always give me and ask me wad time im gg home.





You will always be in our mind and heart, dad.


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We used to be a happy family. But god is cruel to take our dad away suddenly. Just 30 seconds and dad go into coma. I was at hm together w mom trying to revive dad. Before he close his eyes, I can tears at the edge. I can see that dad got lotsa things to tell us. But he does not have the chance. We pray and pray hoping that he will be awake. But that never happen. He died in his sleep with breathing difficulties. He vomit blood twice but the doctors lied to us saying it's food.
Life is just never fair. When dad is gg to recover and has kick off all the bad habits, he is nt given any chance to enjoy his life. He wanted to see bro's graduated from university. He wanted to see sis graduating from poly and enter university. He wanted to go hols w us. He still got lotsa things to do w us.
I miss dad's nonsense, laughter and nagging. Please take care of urself dad. We love you, always.

Dad, hang in there. Don't leave us behind. We still got lots of things need to do together.